Posted in Spirituality

I Quit! (Doesn’t that feel good?!)

“Too many inspirations” has long been my excuse, as well as my pride, but a couple of months ago, I said, “I quit!” and I really, truly did quit quite a few things:
~ I quit my home and yard design business.
~ I quit singing.
~ I hardly planted anything in the garden.
~ And more I’ll spare you.

What I decided to do was two things:  1) Pay primary attention to healing – figuring out how to monitor my wandering, easily-distractable mind, meditate, pay attention to the communications of my alters and their healing status, stay focused on my “big questions,” track my progress, etc. – and 2) write about it.  That’s all I would do, besides the necessary mundane work.

I was due to get my first Social Security check, and Greg was willing to take up the slack while I practiced this discipline for some unknown length of time – Thank you, Greg!

So I’ve been monitoring, listening, focusing and tracking since early August – applying effective business skills to my head – and writing about it in my various blogs.  (Details here.)

And exciting things are happening!  I’m noticing phenomenal changes in my ability to track my own ideas more coherently, also feeling more calm, alert, and present – a powerful experience for me.

And just what I’d hoped for.

But there was a surprise too:  Singing, which I’d always felt was the least of my talents is the one thing that has come back to me.

After six weeks of leaving the house when Greg and other musicians would get together, he drew me back for a single song, and then “just a few,” and then one night he led the band in a whole series of my favorite songs, and I just couldn’t leave.  And here’s the surprise:  I liked my voice.  It had changed.

That, plus the fact that so many people challenged my decision and told me they wanted to keep hearing our harmonies gave me permission to accept singing back into my life.

As they say, “If you let it go and if it returns, it’s yours.”

So:  I accept.  Gratefully.  And I enjoy it so much more now that I’ve discovered my voice is new.

lying here video stillA few days ago (Oct 3), Greg and I were singing and I spontaneously suggested we go into the office and record one of our co-written originals, “Lying Here with You,” with the minimalist PhotoBooth software on the Mac.  Not fancy recording equipment by a long shot – but, wouldn’t you know, it was heart-felt, and got heart-warming responses on Greg’s website and Facebook page.

So I invite you to take a listen.  It’s sensuous and sweet.

Maybe we should all just quit things now and then.  And see what comes back. snapshotOne more thing I was hoping for, but not too hopefully:  teaching Greg to do more of his marketing!  But that came back to me too!  I spent all day Sunday – 15 hours! – happily updating it – and it wasn’t work – it was artwork, and very satisfying.  (Greg kept me fed, and responded to my every need while I worked.)  Here’s the new design.   

I pray all our activities are exactly what we should be doing, and if we have any doubts that we have the Courage to Quit – at least for a while, to see what returns.

Many happy returns!

Posted in 1 Garden, Spirituality

Nature as our First and Best Healer

Hi All,

And hovering like an angel!
And hovering like an angel!

I’ve been taking a break from garden design since January.


That’s pretty incredible to my mind, having been a workaholic since my childhood, when I heard “Rise and Shine!” “Up and at ’em!” and “Bright-eyed and bushy-tailed!” every school morning of my childhood – or at least that’s what it felt like.

So I guess I’m in yet another phase of recalibrating my life to a slower, more meditative, healthy pace.  That’s good.  Not apparently as productive, but probably more so than I realize.

I’ve felt powerfully moved to accept a calling I have felt for many years but have felt terribly ashamed to be such a poor practitioner of such a gift.

I have felt called to create a church – one that doesn’t hold “services,” because I believe worship (as Christ said) is to be done in private – but a church which offers doctrine that I believe many people believe but have been terrorized to keep quiet about (passed down from the Inquisition, slavery, or other genocide), that is, a church that affirms Nature as our Healer, and our gardens as our private healing sanctuaries.

I was loathe to begin a church (many horrific memories there), and I certainly didn’t want to put myself forward as a minister (though I am – story later), and I certainly don’t need another project.

But I felt the need keenly.  So I created the Garden Healing Church.

Doctrines include:

1) Our personal responsibility to keep ourselves healthy through good food, water, and medicine.

2) Gardens and public wild places are the very best places for healing.  (Christ and many other wise ones went to the garden or into nature to pray.)

3) Nature contains plants that heal us (and take away our pain, help us contemplate, and more) – presumed by many spiritual teachers, and specifically “given” by the God of Genesis.

4) Nature spirits have a wealth of information, bits of which we might be granted when we pray in Nature.

To my delight, I realized these doctrines and this church would support a few different political quests for religious-based healing rights and other related rights.

1) The right to use plants for healing as we believe best, including marijuana and other natural plants targeted by the FDA..

2) The right to not be forced to pay for allopathic healing.

3) The defense of wild lands, and the quiet there.

These spiritual beliefs and practices are all under serious political attack today.

While attorneys do their work on this issue, it makes sense for us as individuals to assert our beliefs and to get spiritual support for living a healthy, natural-healing life, with time and space for prayer in nature, and without compulsion to pay for healing methods that offend our spiritual senses.

The Garden Healing Church offers:  

1) a membership (free) through which you assert your spiritual rights to heal with nature’s gifts, and

2) occasional posts and opportunities to share conversation supporting each individual’s healing naturally.

You can read about and join (free) the Garden Healing Church here:

Oh yes, and the story about how I became a minister (years ago) is there too.

Peace, blessings, and healing to you ~